I'm wrapping xmas presents in Barbie wrapping paper waiting for rachal to get here so we can get sk from the airport

Our house is freezing cuz the heater is broken so rozi Josh and I each have space heaters we should all out ours in the living room for like an hour to warm up the place its ridiculous. A coworker said it will snow friday night but I really hope not.

I bought yogurt at starbucks. Then I asked some bitch working there for a spoon she looked really confused then asked the 3 other people working there and they all replied "a spoon?" and seemed really confused then the last person she asked goes oh you mean like a plastic soon

Yeah
Like

Omg a plastic spoon

Idiots

Is having a huge impact on my attitude I don't like it one single bit

I'm sicky before I actually have a weekend off

And of course the weekend I have off I have no plans prolly good since I'm sick.


My plan is to come home after work and eat advil PM and sleep it off hopefully that works

Are acting even crazier than I feel lately


What the hella?

Thursday?

Some say trinity

2 different groups of friends for 2 different reasons

Why not?

Extremely concerned

I'm happy

And I'm questioning why I didn't start dating jay the first time he asked oh well

I'm with him now and he is such a good one

And I know I shouldn't compare him with people I've been with in the past
But he is so much better for me than all the others

He has his shit together he has my back (always has really) even when we were just friends

He recognizes the future rather than just living in the moment and idk its just great. I hate being one of those girls... That posts about how great their bf is but I feel like posting a positive post and expressing how lucky I feel.

At the party at my house or more commonly known as Josh and rozis place

It was super fun got to see lots of people I love and some I didn't know but were cool and some I hadn't seen in hella

And to my surprise in the morning the house was pretty much spotless thanks sk
And thanks for everyone who came!

I'm a fuckin convenience. Or however the hell you spell it.


I crave change

And I'm sick of being nice to all these people who don't want me around

Hiding in my room is cool I get a lot of reading done and jays house is like a mini vacation cuz its the middle of nowhere

I need to change something but I don't know what I've done the thing where I go through all my shit and throw a bunch of stuff out which is refreshing but I need to explore new places or things maybe pick up a hobby or something idk but I need out of this god damn funk. For real

I don't get them

Some people get it
Tracy and Alex get it

They got my back and jay gets it and he also has my back

A few others get it

But can't be there for me which is fine

Ugh I'm in a weird funk... Still

Lame.

I don't know what I want


Ugh I don't know what's happening

I'm lookin forward to skuttlebutt time tho

A fair portion of boom boom gasm is hanging out right now in lake city

I missed the castle times

Well most of them

Bbg4l <3

He somehow managed to last minute get a bunch of our old friends together tonight

So I think after work I will join in for at least a minute

I'm super tired and have been kinda sick for 3ish days but I miss everyone and I don't work tomorrow
Why not?

Also now I just gotta wait for jerron to be21 then everyone can join in on the 21 and up activities yay

Crazy dreams


Its all feesking me out

A couple of my dreams this week ended up being true

Also its jay Hogan snd alexs birthday this week and Keith!

So on Friday is jays actual birthday marta is bringing some sort of potatoe food I'm making cupcakes and other food and we will maybe have a few drinks
Weds is alexs actual birthday but Hogan is celebrating that day then leaving for California then Alex is celebrating his 21st on saturday

Busy week

i somehow don't work this weekend

Tomorrow I'm goin to port orchard well I'm goin to jays work then we are going to port orchard

Then saturday we are coming back to Seattle for joshs party at the house u don't know what time Josh wants is home to set up jays silly gear tho? Hmmm

Should be fun times
It will be fuckin hot with hell of people over tho

My routine of keeping in touch with people better

Usually every Sunday I call both my grandmas and my mom
Text my dad

And through out the week text my cousin my sister and parents and my friends

I know I've been busy with movin roommates around and work finally picked up
But I feel like I'm neglecting people
And I hate that
I got a phone call at 3am from a friend crying cuz they missed me first I heard from them in 2 and a half months
Anyways I miss people

Is weird

But I'm happy

Things are piecing back together

Along with some added pieces falling right into place

That was awkward

No doubt was awesome
Awkward moments are funny

Rozi Tracy jay and I found a really cute bar walking distance from the house rozi and I decided it will be our escape the next week

And prolly be our brfl bar while we live here in a week Josh can join too!